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I haven't blogged on this site in forever I think I am going to start doing it again. SO uh yeah.... thats it for the moment...

later?

ok....

i need everyone's opinion on this one...and i know all of you who read this....so you might as well just answer the question and leave a comment. Do you like this site http://canyonsfilled.blogspot.com better or this site http://xanga.com/jeankeller better? just let me know! later gators...

too many thoughts to write...

But I will fill you in on a little bit of my life. I have been really busy the last few days just learning how to be a Cracker Barrel waitress instead of a The Siding waitress...haha. My first day completely sucked! I messed up a gillion times...no one was happy! But Sunday I did very well and today I did well too. I am starting to get into the swing of things...makes me happy :o)

My home life seems crazy. I feel like no one really understands...sometimes Guy...but not really. Dad and Mom are so stressed right now just looking for work and trying to figure out our housing situation... I think it is time for me to try to move out...and my mom agrees. So That is one thing I am still considering at the moment.

School is pretty easy... I just get irritated because it seems like all my profs hate religion though. So it is hard to back up what I believe...but good for me at the same time.

I got to go out to breakfast with Jessica and Angel yesterday...and their boyfriends...that kinda sucked cuz I am single LOL...but oh well I got over it. Then I went and had some hotdogs with Kevin at his little campfire...then I got to see Never Been Kissed with the Jodry girls :o) I love that movie...we had a blast!

Well as far as what I am leaning lately... I really have no idea...I guess just to be organized and patient. Aside from that it seems like everything is just happing all at once.

thats all for now...later gators

woot!

Last night was so much fun to me! I had some people stop by after church... lets go alphabetical order haha... Chris,Elisa, Kara, Kevin, Micah, and Rachel! We went to East End...woo hoo for ice cream...and then played the card game B.S. which was so fun! I think it is hilarious how people get so caught up in that game! After they left Kevin helped me clean my car...HAHA it was pretty dirty so I was happy that he kinda made me :o) Thanks Kevin! Thanks to all you other awesome people for coming by! I seriously love you all and I think we are the KEWLEST group of people! haha have a good one! Later gators

God Provides...

So I was thinking yesterday...How am I gonna get through my financial burdens? Right now it seems so impossible to ever get out of this hole that I am in. And I have a bill that is coming up this week so I was kinda panicking cuz I didn't want to lose my car. Well today I got a check in the mail from Springhill...it looks like they made some mistakes and owed me some money. SO... I got a $120 dollar check in the mail!!! WOO HOO...unfortunatly all of it has to go to my bill...which makes me really sad lol...but then again I am happy that God provided me with what I absolutly needed to get by. My God's cool like that :o)
later gators

so busy!

My life seems SO busy! haha I got a job yesterday and I am now a Cracker Barrel waitress! I also started school yesterday so I know things are going to begin to get hectic. last night I went to the guys softball game and they completely ROCKED! They won all three games and got the trophy...it was so intense.

Today I have one more class...dumb psychology lol...doesnt start for another 45 minutes so I am trying to figure out what to do in the meantime. Hope you all have an AWESOME day... lol

No deep thoughts in my head today...sorry to dissappiont you all lol
later gators

GRRR!

Ever just wanna kick yourself something horrible? I am so upset with myself....grrrr

Because He lives I can face tomorrow...

Man, life right now just seems so difficult. I KNOW I am supposed to go to school this semester...but I dont have the job to provide the money for gas at the moment. I cant get my fafsa papers filed because not only have they NOT sent me my pin number...but there site has been down according to my lovely computer. So I am just trying so hard to trust God right now. I dont want to give up trusting Him...I know He has this under control...but I do wonder why He isnt allowing for this to be a little easier.

Lately I have been realizing more and more about relationships. Looking at the guys I have liked in the past...I have all liked them for a specific reason or another...there really is no simularities between them. Well I got to thinking..I really dont have a "type" of guy...does anyone really have a type? "Oh well he (she in all the guys cases) just isnt my type." I am now realizing we are not to be searching for the right type...but for the person who best serves God with us. I need to be waiting...not looking...waiting for the guy who is going the same way as I am when it comes to the plans God has for me. I need to be waiting for the guy who says "I think we really have the potential to serve God as one". Seems that when we look for relationships in these days we tend to put the "I"s and "me"s into it too often. I want to look for the potential to serve first...and when that comes into place I KNOW that there will be more to it...the romance and the love will follow. It is just a whole new perspective on relationships to me and I am pretty excited about it. I am also satisfied and content to wait for whoever it is that God has for me to serve with.

It is funny...right now I feel as though I really have nothing. But at the same time I am the happiest I have ever been...all because Jesus Christ loves me and is the Hand that holds me.

The Creator and Sustainer of ALL things, seen and unseen...
is the Lover of my soul...
how unworthy I am

To be equiped...

I was reading the other day in Hebrews 13:20-21 and it said (to paraphrase) "May God equip you with everything good you need to do His will and may He work in us what is pleasing to Him through Jesus Christ."

I want to be equiped with everything to do His good and perfect will and what is my prayer for the moment. I want my life to be used in a way that is glorifying to Him. I want people to know that I love him with all of my heart (my desires) all of my soul (everything I am) all of my mind (every thought) and all my strength (every breath in my body). I know it is such a high goal...but I truely want my life to reflect Him and Him alone...I want Him to be my identity.

I am seeing right now how difficult it is to first of all want to do the Lords will. Then once it is wanted it is hard to see where you actually take it. What moves do you make to accomplish it? Once you know what He wants...it can sometimes be even hard to do it.

How does one accomplish such things? Pray pray pray! Read read read! And keep your eyes open for whatever He may have for you. I have learned that it is just no use in havin your own plans. Tomorrow He could take away everything from you...or He could give you things you never knew were possible to obtain. So why plan for yourself? That is why He is here to help you go through the moves you must to obtain His will. Our life here on earth is only a glimpse of what is to come and if you are not prepared to serve Him here...how do expect to serve Him in heaven?

Just thought I would share with you what the Lord is doing in my life! Share with me what He is doing in yours if you like!!!

God Bless! later gators...

hello everyone!

Sorry it took me so long to post something on here! I have been so super busy! God has taught me so much! I feel like He just took me out of my life and showed me how much I didnt like who I was...I mean I have so much more potential then I give myself! I have not been living up to all I can be and I know that it is time for some changes. I am just hoping and praying that I can live my life completly for Him!

Here are some things that I have learned or been reminded of..sorry I cant expand more on them


*God is not a feeling...He is constant. I get so sick of people saying "i just dont feel God lately" well He never promised that you could feel Him all the time...but He did promise to always be here...so live everymoment for Him even when you cant feel Him.

*God laughs at me for trying to make my own plans...nuff said on that haha

*Also God used me in so many ways I didnt know He would/could until after the fact...another reason to always be serving Him because you never know how He will use you!

well that is all for now...there is more than that...but most of you can just ask in person if you would like! later gators....